Home for the first full day since Daddy had two craniotomies last week. Jeff is at work. Cooper and I are hanging out while Cade naps. Cooper hugged me around my neck and said "Mama I love you come home". I knew what he meant. Grateful doesn't seem to be a big enough word to describe how I feel. So many emotions... happy, present, aware, gentle, scared, fragile, loved, tired, heartache, pain, grateful, happy, content, fulfilled... I've run the gamete of emotions this week. I've learned a LOT. I've seen a lot. I've missed a lot. I'm sitting here looking around our home through joyful eyes. Now more than ever I want to make every second count. I know I'll blink and my babies will be grown men with families of their own. But I'm also aware that with each breathe our lives can change. I have so much to be grateful for. I'm so filled up, so joyful. Patience. Calm. Love. Wonder. With open eyes and an open heart, I plan to live the rest of my days.